Back after 6 years
Hi there, it has been 6 years without any post. I am back..happy to remember my blog username and password. It sounds wierd but this is true..anyway...
Always A Begineer
Here's what's strange, though. I haven't seem to be able to do any things that i usually did when i was at Kidurong. For months, i had a steady and serious attention on what i supposed to do and to bring my life back on track. and i even brought new furnitures,plants along with my best intentions. But's it just isn't happening here. Since old days friends gone with their own life, it seems harder to make some new friends. Truthfully,
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For years, i'd wished i could speak other than malay or english, it seems so difficult to find more time for learning other languages. Since i was in Italy, Italian has been part of me and i found italian language is more beautiful than roses. but i could never make the logic and practical justification for studying it. I had made some friends when i was in Italy, Sameer, the Eygytian who currently lives in Paris and we still communicate with each other we got times. Sameer is currently working with one of Oil and Gas Industry and works as Accountant. Lately we seldom send emails or messages at friendster of myspace. I know that everyone of us have obligationa and self commitment. But, still we remain friends ever we are apart distance from each other and the most important that we still practising and communicating in Italian. Studying a language is something you can actually do and enjoy with it. It is more exciting if we do something that we really love and looking for it. It likes you falling in love when someone...But, i loved it. Every word was a singing sparrow in Italian. a magic trick, a truffle for me. I will i can become one of those annoying people who always says cioa!., buon giorno, scusi,...at every morning when ever i arrive at office I noticed that my new engineer, Gery is quite ok in italian eventhough he can speaks spanish, but he can a little bit translate it in italian. This is the only one God creatures that i always use my italian skills at office.
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I sometimes ask myself the radical question. What i really want in life and what i want to do?. Most of times i didnt dare to anwer any question, but just thrilled privately to its existence. Though, And when i started to answer, i did so cautiously.ermm...
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I end today's at this pm. ciao!.
I Will Be
There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go
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I know I let you down
But it's not like that nowThis time
I'll never let you go
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I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
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I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly
You're the one thing
I got right
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The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me
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And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go
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I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
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Cause without you I cant sleep
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah
And without you
I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need
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And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life (my life),
I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
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I will be (I'll be), all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, you know I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
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I Am Muslim
I just finished my reading for "Eat, Pray, Love" by Elizabrth Gilbert exactly when i landed in Bintulu airport. I love this book as much as i love other all top rated books that i read before. And today, 25th May 2008, I have nothing to do except do housekeeping and cloth washing at home. After i finished my simple self cooked lunch, i headed to Parkcity Mall if i could do something over there..You know, sight seeinng, enjoying a wonderful God created creatures- off course, seeing people walking around doing a window shopping at the place which offers not many options for the shoppees.
I was at Popular Bookstore this noon and bring home few books. Among them are I am Muslim by Dina Zaman, The Shock Doctrine by Noami Klein and Wasiat & Nasihat Kerohanian translated by Akmal Hj. Mhd Zain. I am so interested to read this " I am Muslim" by Dina Zaman. Since i finished reading Elizaberth Gilbert for her latest publication, i want something kind of similar for as my reading appertite and looking for something that could offer meditation of love and the true happiness in life. There are so many ways to find the true happiness.
I am not sure how exciting i am , reading this book but obviously for the next two days, i will enjoy myself finishing this book and i will share my review then in my facebook.
cioa!
A Morning at Kuala Lumpur International Airport
Today is 22nd May 2008, I arrived at Kuala Lumpur International Aiport (KLIA) exactly at 6.00am. KLIA was voted as the World's Best Airport (15-25 million passengers per annum) for two consecutive years, in the 2005 AETRA awards and 2006 ACI-ASQ awards.
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I feel i am not really feeling well. After a long journey, it makes me to feel so horrible and sometimes i feel i want to vomit. I am now seating at the corner of KLIA awaiting for the next flight to Bintulu. The next flight is now scheduled at 11.45am and it is still a long wait until a boarding time. I am honestly missed something on the flight. Temptation In Flight Shopping, i thought when i brought a coupon of RM 250.00 as a complimentary from MAS upon reaching a certain points of Enrich, i could spend this value by buying something i.e. probably perfumes, watches etc. Unfortunately i forgot to order till the shopping period is closed and the planes is landed in KLIA. Damn it!..I am not really worry if dont spend this RM 250.00 but the expiry date of this cuopon is going to be on 6th June 2008, which is a week from now. Damn it. !
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I have another four hours for doing nothing at this airport.Indeed, i need a shower right now and i dont feel too confortable since the moment i touched down in KLIA. And again, the meeting that i suppose to attend today was postponed and i thought i could rush back to Bintulu for this meeting, and it will end up spending the whole today at home.
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I wonder why so many people at the airport this morning. Since 6.30am, the airport was a bit crowded with the people talking, chatting with each others and some guys just seating at corner with a sleepy face and the kids running here and there with joys and few of them were screaming at their mummy requesting something. It's really happening at this morning. Since i i have checked in for the next flight when i was in Dubai International Airport, after i went out from the Arrival Hall and strainght heading to Departure Hall which is located on the top stories of KLIA, i just look around if there is any seat available for resting. At last, i spotted an empty seat at the corner of MAS counter, infront of Sembonia shop, which selling highly fashinable stuffs.
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" Spotlight" Is Coming
Hey guys, as i told you before, my sis is back with a highly anticipated new album this year. Jennifer Hudson, the one and only, will release her first single titled " Spotlight" on 9th June on radio broadcasts. I honestly can't wait to hear her first single of the album. And again can't wait to watch her at Sex and The City the Movie acting as Carrie's assistance. Cool! Miss Hudson!. You go girl!.
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She has proved that you don't need to win American Idol to be successful. The diva in waiting list was 7th place on the third season of American Idol. After Hudson left American Idol she was cast in the role of Effie White in the film version of the Broadway musical Dreamgirls alongside fellow diva Beyonce Knowles. The performance earned her numerous accolades and awards including a Golden Globe, a Screen Actors Guild Award, and an Academy Award. Now Hudson will be releasing her debut self-titled album in September. Her first single "Spotlight" written by R&B producer Ne-Yo will hit radio early on June 9. Other contributors on her album include Timbaland, Robin Thicke, and Dianne Warren.
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So peon, get your cash ready for the new album of JHud or as Mr Clives mentioned that the major new releasing album this year. Cant wait, girl!
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p/s: Peon, bleh buat suara cam Jennifer Hudson cam dlm Dreamgirls tak?..
That's a Little Thing that Cheers Up Life
My taxi arrived at Dubai International Airport at 11.45am, and it is still early to check in for the flight scheduled at 4.30pm. Today is very sunny day and the normal weather between may to june in Dubai. While awaiting for boarding, i spending my little hours with seating at the food court located at 1st floor of the aiport ( at the entrance ) while having a not really good lunch. I am not so sure exactly i have ordered for my lunch. The food serves with salty veges and the roasted chicken and rice. It costs me about RM 24 per meal. a bit expensive for this simple lunch.
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Before i departed from Hotel, i received a sms from my ex-bos asking to complete my last year performance appraisal, it just a last part before closing. Is it really necessary after all this while spending so much for uncertains and it ends up with nothing. Well, what to do. Life is always unfair for those whom sacrfices so much and recieved lesser than they thought.
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I received a chain of emails from " Hey ladies". Senior Manager?...who's appointed as a senior manager. Sometimes, it's really a breaking news if somebody that we really know it's really made a move on his career. We happy if one of us really make a good choice and receive an ample appreciation. The email is all bout Hisyam, by the way why i am also involved in this funny email...tukang urut...hello, to Dayang, this is special dedication message for you. Tengku Sandra will never cries if she think that she is not beautiful.. so think about it, there is no need to do a nose job or any other thing for uncertain purposes. But i am still happy if you want to be as beautiful as %^R*%#.
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Having a lot of friends without any particular preferences and at any given time can make life so meaningful and happiness. Sometimes, i tend to be so selective to choose a friend. Indeed, i want to make friends as many as possible but sometimes, it's not easy to get a friend who can share everything and always ready when we really need them. They are just at the corner.
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Fishing Trip Idea
The first meal i ate in Deira was nothing much. Just some indian food with a side order of bread garlic and drinks. Like other places, sometimes i really enjoy my eating appertite and enjoy the view where ever i'm seating for either lunch or dinner. In every major city that i have being, some things are the same. What i can notice here is that at every time i called a taxi, they will off course charge extra on the top of the charges incurred from the milage.
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I always said " Voglio qualcosa realmente piccante e sexy" before i made an order at any cafe that i stop. I really miss the words..really. This morning, after i woke up and before taking a shower, as usual i will switch on my notebook and check emails if any. While checking emails, i will online my Yahoo Messager if there is anyone that i really know is online. This morning, Jay just gave e a buzz and saying hi and good morning. We were chatting about a trip to Kenyir for fishing but, it was not really on the topic of fishing, but it's more to casual conversation. The fishing idea is probably something that i can think about. I have become a friend with Jay since we met in Kuala Lumpur. He works with one of well known financial investment company and the most important we share the same interests- fishing. My brother and dad always spend their times with fishing.
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The idea of fishing in Kenyir lake?.To answer it more throughly and honestly, i dont want to have any while i'm in Terengganu. Since this may be a time to really take a snap break and enjoy life doing something that i really love probably is a good idea. I do desperately want to have some, but i've decided to sit this particular outdoor activity for a while when i am at home in Terengganu. Hey guy, terengganu has a lot of fishing spots and my dad can list pages of fishing spot that he has being since last few years.
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I still remember when i spent few weeks at my untie's house in Yan, Kedah. Her house is exactly aside of paddy field and there was a long straight stream next to hers. Every morning we woke up, we started our day with fishing. One day we can catch about 100 fishes of Puyu and sepat. So cazy.. i honestly really miss that moment.
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Hey guy, i got another two hours before my boarding to Malaysia. ciao!
The Next Damn Thing in Life
There's so many secrets hidden unknown. And there are so many circumstances which stop every moment for joys. That's how i feel when i'm thinking about life. Today is Tuesday, a very warm day in Dubai. and it's a bit hot to walk outside the room. Towards the end of May, it is already a summer season and sometimes the temperature could reach almost 50 deg C.
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I am actually bad or rather lazy at researching a place before i travel, tending just to show up and see what happens. When you travel this way, what typically happens is that you end up spending a lot of time standing in the middle of the bus station or train station feeling confused, or dropping wat to much on money on taxis because you don't know better. And this is just happen to me today. After i have my meeting completed around 12 noon at Jebel Ali Free Zone area,i just asked straight away the taxi driver who was waiting for me all the way since 9.00am at the KNM office to drive me to whenever the visitor like me who wants to spend money without any concrete reason. So i just followed what he said and end up i dropped me at nowhere. And off course, i look confused and " what's the hell of this place"?. My shaky sense of direction and geography means i have explored few continents in my life with only the vaguest idea of when i am at any given time. Aside from my cockeyed internal compass, i also have a shortage of personnel coolness, which can be liability in travel. Basically, i was at Al Kamala, a shopping area for those whom wants to shop branded stuff with a good price. I have no ideas what i bought and spent about thousands for home and whoever that i can remember.
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And now i am at Traders Hotel - my favorite hotel whenever I travel outside Sarawak. Among all the most prestigious hotels in the world, i don't know why i am so loyal to this Hotel. Is it offers better than others?. I guess.
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There are so many things in mind. After few weeks i'm emotially suffering heartbreaking moment and hoping for someone to coming back, and it never happens. It has being so hard to joy every moment that i have in the past few weeks. Even until now, it's so difficult in this position to rely on someone who are not belongs to you. Still, despite all this, traveling is the great true love of my life. I have always felt, since i was in Italy and first went oversea with my saved up cashiering money, that to travel is worth any cost or sacrifice. I believe that i am loyal and constant in my love for travel plus my work!. Hey, life is not for a duty!. Monday to Friday, 7.30am to 4.30pm, weekend doing housekeeping at home..These is all routine and i dont like honestly routine job or routine life. i feel about travel the way a happy young kid got his 1st present at his 1st birthday and i just dont care what its put me through.
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This year has being a lot of things going to happen. Looking back on what i have sacrified does not promise anything. Am i happy enough to go through this year with just doing these routine works. I have a lot of things i want to do. i want to travel as much as i can with a buddy that i can talk to, i want to learn the most beautiful languance in the world- Italian and i want to eat the foods that i dream of. I love to speak Italian as I used to it when I was in Florence, Italy. It had being so wonderful leaving with the people speaking the most beautiful language. All about Italian is so sexy, the people, the food, the ancient building and the language. I love to say” Alora, buon giorno, buon notte, dove manga staserra, signore?”..i really miss these words. I am not sure when I will be back to Italy.
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Gosh! i could use a little break from this trip, to give myself some space to discover what i look like and talk like when i'm trying to merge with someone. And also, let's be honest, it might be a generous public service for me to leave intimacy alone for a while. When i scan back my romantic record, it doesnt look so good. It's been one catastrophe after another. How many more different types of women can i keep trying to love, to continue to fail? Think of it this way- if you'd had ten serious traffic accidents in a row, would not they eventually take your driving license away?. Wouldn't you kind of what them to?.
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There's a final reason i'm hesitate to get involved with someone else. I'm exhausted by the cumulative consequences of a lifetime of hasty choice and option passions.
I could probably make a lot of friends and keep anything aside whatever thing involves with the feelings. Hey, there is still a lot of things in my to do lists. And i don’t want the idleness ruins my calendar and keeps it empty. I have one ticket to Gold Coast which was opened last year and probably I planned to go there with Liz. If she is confirmed. If not, I will be traveling alone all the way from KLIA to Gold Coast. But, it is still undecided eventhough I have bought the ticket last year. Ofit and the geng wanna spend their holiday in Aukland and asked me to follow. I may spend my holiday in Australia with Liz if no changes in the original plan.
Will see…
Live for Love
No, no one lives for love
How can we go on
When no one lives for love
And though we see the world is falling down around us
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Why can't we see, it's you and me
Alone, is the sun without the rain to carry on
Is the heart without the love to keep it warm
Where did we go wrong, where did we go wrong
What if this life we live, is a chance for us to give
What if dreams were made to show the way
How can we survive, when we push the love aside
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Only God can save us now this night I pray
No one lives for love Someone tell me why
No one lives for love We must realise, that no one lives for love
When all the beauty of the world is all around us
Why can't we see it's you and me
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And now, as your soul becomes the rain that's falling down
I pray, that we, we can learn to live for love the way
God has shown us, through your life his, love will find a way
Through your life, we've all learned to live for, love
